My Mind Or Me?


So here I was thinking and for the first time in my life I was blank. I had nothing to say to the world. My mind was blank, as blank as the sheet of paper in front of me. I realized I had nothing positive to offer to the world tonight. I was devastated. I started jotting down everything which came into my mind, that in those unorganized jumble of rambling thoughts I might find something useful which I can share with the world. Of this chaotic world which I am a part is crumbling and all I think about is “what happens in the novel I was reading earlier”.
That is when I realized that I have been to cut off with the world. All I think about is stuff which is irrelevant. I have no time for people around me and for the things that really matter. All my life I have been like this, always thinking on something but not really thinking on the stuff which really matters. Not paying attention to the people who have been a part of my life and deserve my attention. I always hid behind my work so that I don’t have to talk to them, let them share their problem with me so that I might be able to help sort them out. I have isolated my life to a small circle of friends who don’t know me better then what they actually see. I have created countless walls around me hid myself behind those so I won’t have to face them, but I knew that some time I would actually have to face them and embrace the reality of life. My family and friends depend on me for my advice and support but alas! I have never been there to help them. I have always made excuses that I have so much work to do that I have shunned them from my life. We have become so far apart that now everyone is same to me “just another face in the crowd” which I will forget the moment I turned. I have absorbed myself so much in the world I have created that I have given no attention as to what is happening on the other side of those walls I have created.
I think it is now time to change for better. It’s time to start destroying those walls little by little, to let people in. I know it’s going to take time as ever revolution does but I will get there somehow. I have time or I hope I do, to change for better because if I don’t change myself it will be too late and I would become just another person who left without doing anything for the people he loved.

Prepared by Mohammad Ali (Guest Blogger)And Fakeha Ali

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